Long time since i posted eh ._. HA HA HA. Today something creepy happened. Totally freaked out okayy. Hmm people, its over. Don't think about it already, take it as nothing happened. AND DONT GO BACK THERE, EVEN THOUGH YOU ARE CURIOUS. ( later you die. Im kidding. Its just dangerous you know ! :D )
I think jafqi is really sweet ! (: HA HA HA.
Hmmm, I think i wasted one year already. One year. I don't know. I know my results is really dissappointing. I drop so much. So much. I have no one to blame but myself. So stupid not to touch a book at all. So stupid to not study at all since the beginning of the year. I thought that I won't do VERY badly even though I didn't study. I thought cchms was slack, so i cant be bothered to study. But its printed in black and white. I was wrong, like really wrong. People have been telling me to work hard. Work hard for myself, but I didn't listen. I still continued my Happy-Go-Lucky way. Thinking that i could pass with flying colours without studying at all.
How stupid i am ._. I know her expectations is getting higher and higher. I don't know how to show her. I really don't know, she is going t0 blame me, scold me, or even take everything that i got now. I'm really scared that she does that. Yea, all i said to her is, I just came in sec one so i cannot cope. I have been lying to her that i have been studying. I have been lying to her that my results are okay. I have been lying to myself that everything will be okay. I have been lying to myself that its okay that i didn't study, the next test will be easier instead of studying. I dont want to screw sec 2 up. Its streaming. I need to change the way how i live. SUCK ._.
HLS have been helping me a lot. I am grateful to her (: But if really really really i get in, i dont want to separate from you all. Even though there might be conflicts and stuff in the class, but i know that i had fun. My main concern is only that. If i dont have to change, how great it will be. But i know that MAYBE i can get both. Its kinda impossible. And if i really change class, I am considering of ... But, UH. Damn. Tomorrow is the last day of school, i will know the results too. It will determine whether drama night is the last day for me and you all to be together or not. I am really forward to drama night.
I think jafqi is really sweet ! (: HA HA HA.
Hmmm, I think i wasted one year already. One year. I don't know. I know my results is really dissappointing. I drop so much. So much. I have no one to blame but myself. So stupid not to touch a book at all. So stupid to not study at all since the beginning of the year. I thought that I won't do VERY badly even though I didn't study. I thought cchms was slack, so i cant be bothered to study. But its printed in black and white. I was wrong, like really wrong. People have been telling me to work hard. Work hard for myself, but I didn't listen. I still continued my Happy-Go-Lucky way. Thinking that i could pass with flying colours without studying at all.
How stupid i am ._. I know her expectations is getting higher and higher. I don't know how to show her. I really don't know, she is going t0 blame me, scold me, or even take everything that i got now. I'm really scared that she does that. Yea, all i said to her is, I just came in sec one so i cannot cope. I have been lying to her that i have been studying. I have been lying to her that my results are okay. I have been lying to myself that everything will be okay. I have been lying to myself that its okay that i didn't study, the next test will be easier instead of studying. I dont want to screw sec 2 up. Its streaming. I need to change the way how i live. SUCK ._.
HLS have been helping me a lot. I am grateful to her (: But if really really really i get in, i dont want to separate from you all. Even though there might be conflicts and stuff in the class, but i know that i had fun. My main concern is only that. If i dont have to change, how great it will be. But i know that MAYBE i can get both. Its kinda impossible. And if i really change class, I am considering of ... But, UH. Damn. Tomorrow is the last day of school, i will know the results too. It will determine whether drama night is the last day for me and you all to be together or not. I am really forward to drama night.
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